If I Can’t Have You
Gregg Olsen and Rebecca Morris
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2009 · West Valley City, Utah
Susan Cox Powell
Disappearances & cold cases
Susan Cox Powell disappeared from Utah in December 2009. Her husband Josh said he had taken their young sons camping that night, but he was never tried over her disappearance. In 2012 he killed the boys and himself, leaving major questions about Susan unanswered.
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When2009
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If I Can’t Have You
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Susan Powell: An ID Murder Mystery (2018)
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Dateline NBC — A Family's Story (2012)
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NBC · 2019 catalog, Episode 46 · Listed air date 2019-10-04
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ABC · 2020 catalog, Episode 31 · Listed air date 2020-11-13
20/20 — If Something Happens To Me...
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If I Can't Have You: Susan Powell, Her Mysterious Disappearance, and the Murder of Her Children
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Cold — The Susan Powell Case Files: Anatomy of an Obsession
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Susan Powell: The Disappearance That Became a Case Study
Podcast coverage of the Susan Cox Powell case. Released August 9, 2026. About 31 minutes.
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The Tragic Case of Susan Powell Mini Morbid
Podcast coverage of the Susan Cox Powell case. Released July 23, 2019. About 64 minutes.
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The Disappearance of Susan Powell
Podcast coverage of the Susan Cox Powell case. Released June 16, 2024. About 83 minutes.
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Disappearance of Susan Powell
Podcast coverage of the Susan Cox Powell case. Released September 25, 2022. About 53 minutes.
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The [Unsolved] Murder of Susan Powell- Part 1
Podcast coverage of the Susan Cox Powell case. Released June 14, 2022. About 57 minutes.
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The Susan Powell Case Files | To All the Girls I've Loved Before | 1
Podcast coverage of the Susan Cox Powell case. Released November 14, 2018. About 64 minutes.
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The Susan Powell Case Files | Wearing a Wire | 8
Podcast coverage of the Susan Cox Powell case. Released January 2, 2019. About 60 minutes.
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The Susan Powell Case Files | Scouring the Desert | 7
Podcast coverage of the Susan Cox Powell case. Released December 26, 2018. About 61 minutes.
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Murder In America
EP. 211 - UTAH: The Susan Powell Story (Pt. 1)
Podcast coverage of the Susan Cox Powell case. Released August 8, 2025. About 111 minutes.
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EP. 212 - UTAH: The Susan Powell Story (Pt. 2)
Podcast coverage of the Susan Cox Powell case. Released August 15, 2025. About 145 minutes.
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Obsessed: The Susan Powell Case
Podcast coverage of the Susan Cox Powell case. Released March 5, 2025. About 65 minutes.
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Susan Powell: The Letter She Left Behind
Podcast coverage of the Susan Cox Powell case. Released March 4, 2026. About 79 minutes.
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Episode 23: The Disappearance of Susan Powell and Murder of Charlie and Braden Powell
Podcast coverage of the Susan Cox Powell case. Released August 30, 2021. About 66 minutes.
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The Sinister Case Of The Powell Family
Podcast coverage of the Susan Cox Powell case. Released July 24, 2026. About 63 minutes.
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Rotten Mango — Susan Cox Powell (Episode 114)
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If I Can’t Have You
Gregg Olsen and Rebecca Morris. Related reading for Susan Cox Powell. Book information and any pages made available by Google Books; this is not a promise of full-text access.
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Search reviewed 2026-09-16. Sources searched: Google Books, Internet Archive, Open Library, Library of Congress, Smithsonian Magazine, The Atavist Magazine, Google Books (case/title search), Scribd, Everand, OverDrive and hoopla (combined title search). Search indexing is incomplete; this is not an exhaustive list of the web. Access can change by edition, country and library membership. Library loans may require sign-in or a wait. Everand titles may need a paid subscription; a trial is not permanent free access. Scribd documents are third-party uploads, with uploader details noted where checked. We link to source pages and write our own descriptions rather than reproducing copyrighted books.
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The Spokesman-Review · 2013-05-17 · Page a11
Oregon search finds no trace of Susan Powell
Authorities discuss the investigation after a two-day search failed to locate Powell.
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The Daily Spectrum · 2011-09-15 · Page 5
Investigators examine a discovery during the Powell search
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Internet Archive · Library record · 2014
If I can't have you : Susan Powell, her mysterious disappearance, and the murder of her children
Olsen, Gregg. A library catalog record for a book connected with Susan Cox Powell. The record may offer a preview or borrowing options; full reading access is not guaranteed.
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Nancy Grace : HLN : April 26, 2010 10:00pm-11:00pm EDT
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Dateline : MSNBCW : June 9, 2025 12:00am-1:00am PDT
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FOX and Friends Saturday : FOXNEWS : December 12, 2009 7:00am-10:00am EST
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Cox v. DSHS — Powell children wrongful-death appeal
A related civil appellate decision concerning the deaths of Susan Powell’s sons and the state’s handling of supervised visitation.
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- Washington Court of Appeals
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- April 18, 2023
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- 55438-1
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Stephanie Harlowe
Missing: Susan Powell
Video from Stephanie Harlowe covering the Susan Cox Powell case. Length: 1:19:35.
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The Disappearance of Susan Powell | UNSOLVED
Video from Emma Kenny covering the Susan Cox Powell case. Length: 1:43:57.
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Susan Powell: The Missing Pieces
Video from Investigation Discovery covering the Susan Cox Powell case. Length: 13:54.
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Susan Powell: An ID Murder Mystery
Video from YouTube Movies & TV covering the Susan Cox Powell case. Length: 1:24:26.
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Clues Pod with Morgan Absher & Kaelyn Moore and Two Hot Takes
A Missing Mother Predicted Her Own Death
Video from Clues Pod with Morgan Absher & Kaelyn Moore and Two Hot Takes covering the Susan Cox Powell case. Length: 1:18:47.
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A MONSTER Husband: WORSE Than Chris Watts?
Video from Annie Elise covering the Susan Cox Powell case. Length: 1:49:57.
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Discussion: Susan Powell went missing in 2009. 3 years later during a supervised visit from a social worker her husband, Josh Powell, killed himself…
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Crime and Coffee Couple - True Crime Podcast — TikTok channel
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Murder In America — Facebook group
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Murder In America — Facebook page
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